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Friday, October 31, 2014

My Precious Dog

It's been a busy week and I've been gone a lot and it's so neat to me that every single time I pull up onto my driveway my dog is sitting in the front window in a posture of anticipation. He is not just lazily laying there, no he is upright front paws on the windowsill waiting.
I always do a wider turn onto my driveway so he sees me and I wave then he jumps off his chair and runs to the back door. When I come in it's all smiles and sneezes, he sneezes to show me how excited and yes I am convinced he smiles.
Yesterday was an exceptional greeting, he was thrilled he sneezed, he scratched my legs and he wanted up for some hugs so I picked him up he tucked his head under my chin and gave me a low murmured sound of appreciation...I really felt the love.
In that moment I realized how much his posture of anticipation and his excitement to see me is like that of God. It's didn't matter to my dog if I had a horrible day, if i just had a fight with someone before I walked in the door or got mad in traffic, his greeting was the same simply because he loves me!!
Friends God is like that...He is anticipating you right now, He is waiting just for you and what you've done doesn't matter what matters is that when you open the door to Him in any and all circumstances He has His arms stretched out so wide to envelop you into His love and His embrace!!!!
Whether you've been gone five minutes or five hours or five years the reaction is the same!! He loves you, He loves us....oh how He loves us!!!!!!
I pray you caught a glimpse of that love today through this little story and I pray that love becomes so real and so evident to you today that it is simply undeniable!!!!
I love you friends and hope you have a fantastic weekend!!!


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Thursday, October 30, 2014

Come to Me

"Come to me, all you who are struggling hard and carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 CEB)
Notice it says ALL , not just those that have it all together and those who follow the rules perfectly...no this is ALL! Often we think we can't go to God because maybe it's our fault and the problems we are facing are because of the choices we have made, that very well may be the case but He still invites us to come!! He loves you SO much and doesn't want you to carry anything alone! What have you been holding onto too long that you need to hand over today? Guilt? Shame? Fear? Loneliness? Doubt? He wants to help! Will you trust Him today?! Come JUST AS YOU ARE (that is 100% loved and valued) and He will give you rest!!
Love you friends!!


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Monday, October 13, 2014

Rest in His Love!

It not about how much we love God, it's ALWAYS been about how much He loves us!! For God so loved the world He sent His son....Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his love.
So stop trying to prove to everyone how much you love God and rest today knowing you were loved first, always and forever!!!!


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Thursday, October 09, 2014

FREAK OUT

~Had a borderline freak out moment last night with one of my kids, my
buttons were being pushed, my blood pressure was rising and I could feel
the anger rising up inside me and that feeling that I was about to
explode!! Never had one of those?! Congrats well I have, too many times…

So I felt that all to familiar onset of ‘freak-out’ rising and I
happened to be in my vehicle with this particular child and instead of
freaking out I went shopping (because that’s a healthy way to deal with
stress) ahem….so I walked inside muttering under my breath ‘this kid
drives me nuts’, ‘I need a holiday’, ‘gah how much more can I handle?!’

Feeling absolutely frustrated and yes even sorry for myself, I shopped
and when I felt calm enough, with a few extra items in my possession, I
left the store. I was able to proceed with the rest of the evening and
said child apologized for their actions later that night and all ended
well.
Well this morning as I was thinking about that feeling of
‘freak out’ and I was reminded of a story….about ME…..I realized I was
upset at my kid for acting JUST LIKE ME!!!
See when I was growing
up I went shopping with my mom and I thought I had to have this pair of
Strawberry Shortcake pj’s…..I HAD to have them so I begged and begged
and begged and wore my mom down, she gave in and bought them for me, I
was so proud of myself…twisted pride.
My mom only had one deal and
that was that I had to wait to wear them, for some reason I don’t
remember, so I promised I would hold up my end of the bargain.
I
totally did….until we got home and I opened the bag and I saw the beauty
of what was every little girls dream, pink sleeved Strawberry Shortcake
pjs with shortcake herself on the front in all her glory and I knew
then and there I wouldn’t be able to hold up my end of the bargain any
longer.
So off i went to find my mom and once again begin the process of wearing her down…….

Funny thing I don’t actually remember who ‘won’ that battle, I have a
sneaking suspicion it was my mom, yet I learned a valuable lesson as I
was thinking about this. I get crazy frustrated with this kid and yet
he acts just like I did. When he is passionate about something he goes
for it, hook, line and sinker and nothing is going to hold him back!

I know I was not an easy child to raise, I had my fair share of freak
out moments and slamming the door moments and yet here I am I still have
things I am passionate about and will go after them with all my heart.

I recognize now that this is not something I want to shut down in
this kid no matter how frustrating it may be, I just need to do my part
to guide and direct that passion in a healthy way!
Just as I’m
sure my parents got insanely frustrated with me I like to think they are
happy with where I ended up, so far, and I gotta believe the same can
be true for my kid, no matter the ups and downs we share.
I sure
don’t want to be labelled and defined by my crazy moments I want to be
defined by the moments that show goodness, kindness and directed passion
shown through love, so as a mom I need to offer the same grace to my
child. Not label him for the bad but look for the good in everything he
does!
Parents, none of us are perfect we ALL have stuff that we
walk through with our kids….insanely difficult and tough stuff yet we
never have to walk this alone!! We can ask for help, open up with
someone we can trust, someone to pray, to offer advice and we can keep
on handing it over to God, He truly loves our kids more than we ever
could and He wants to guide us and help us and them every step of the
way!!
So next time you see me shopping…I may be escaping a ‘freak out’ moment, please approach with caution (and chocolate).

All jokes aside, raising kids is not easy and as parents we can be
there for each other, instead of rating each others kids on behavior!!
Let’s stand next to each other and offer help...not judgement! This
kind of community of parents would be amazing, wouldn’t it?!
Love you friends!!

God I Want To Rest

God today I want to rest, rest in you....when I feel the need to work to earn your love and your attention remind me that your love is unshakeable, unconditional and you love me simply because I am me.
God show me what it means to truly rest in your presence knowing that all my cares are placed safely in your hands and that you care and you will see me through anything.
I recognize my need for the continual refreshing of your love, fill me with thoughts of your goodness, your kindness and your sacrifice for me so that I could experience refreshing in your presence without any fear, shame or guilt.
Finally God I recognize my weakness and the need of your strength to face this day! I surrender my weaknesses, my faults, my failures and rely on your strength to see me through. When I am tempted to pick up all that I have laid down, remind me that your strength is available to me every moment, you are with me every step of the way, that I am never alone and I can trust you!!
In Jesus name...AMEN

Love you friends! Have a great day!!


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Wednesday, October 08, 2014

My Prayer for YOU Today

God I pray today that my friends waking up with a pit in their stomach of worry and fear could turn their eyes towards you in trust and that you would fill them with your peace.
I pray my friends that are hurting from loss or a broken relationship would feel your arms wrapping around them and experience your comfort.
I pray for those who feel like they are under a continual cloud of darkness and the weight of the world is weighing heavily on them, that you would pierce the darkness with your light and they would feel the heaviness lifting as they rest in you.
I pray for those with a decision to make and not sure which way to go that they would turn to you for leading and guidance knowing that you have good planned for them.
I pray for parents guiding their children/teens through life that when circumstances are difficult that they could have a sense of purpose and knowing that you love their children with an incredible love and that they are never alone on this journey, that you love to help and you are always right there beside them!
In Jesus name,
Amen
Have a great day friends!

Friday, October 03, 2014

I'm the Worst

I KNOW I can be my own worst enemy.
We took family pics yesterday, the weather had just the right window of opportunity and thanks to a good friend and her patience with my family we got the pictures done!
Later that night I had a chance to sit down at my computer and have a look, what was initial optimism turned into an immediate mood change seeing pictures of myself.
I think I am one of those people that think I look nicer than I really do and then I see a photo of myself and freak out....
Looking at the pictures I sat there thinking~gosh I'm fat, yikes that's gross, oh look at that roll, oh my goodness why did I choose that pose...and on and on the negative comments went inside my head and yeah I'm pretty sure they rolled off my tongue too...sigh....ultimate fail raising a teenage girl and I know that people!!!!
Yet that didn't stop the feelings and the words from coming and that didn't stop how I suddenly felt hatred towards myself. I felt like such a failure, I've been 'trying' to lose weight for ohhhh about 13 years now and I've had a few successes with pounds here and there but nothing sustainable so that feeling of failure and insecurity reared it's ugly head and there I sat seemingly powerless to it!
I got up from the computer and stomped off to bed when my photographer friend emailed me a few of the pictures she had worked on at her end and I admit they were beautiful. Maybe it was because she had chosen the ones where I was tucked behind, none the less they were beautiful! So I unloaded to her how I was feeling and her response was so gracious and kind. It so helped me in that moment!
This is not a post to tell you that I woke up with an 'aha' moment and now I will never eat chocolate again,(miracle of miracles) this is just a post to say I'm a definite work in progress!!
Gosh aren't we all!!
Would I like to 'arrive' in this area, absolutely but for now I'm on a journey not sure how it will all turn out but I know that God isn't too thrilled when He hears His daughter call herself names or tear herself down.
Yet He is eternally patient with me as He is with you!!
This journey, whatever it may be for you, will look different for everyone! We were never promised the same road we were just promised that no matter where the road took us we wouldn't be alone!
When He says 'It's possible'...we all gotta cling to that!!
So whatever you are facing I pray you are surrounded by people you can be REAL with, people that will hold you accountable and people that will walk alongside you no matter what!
Never forget despite what we may sometimes feel, we are wholly and completely loved just as we are!!!
Love you friends!
Have a great weekend!


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Wednesday, October 01, 2014

Be You

Yesterday as I was driving home from volleyball with my kids for some reason I thought I would start speaking in I guess what you'd call a cartoon voice.
I made up stories and spoke in that crazy voice and they laughed, boy did they laugh...Noah was hunched over in the seat beside me, mouth wide open and no sound coming out because he was laughing so hard and I heard Ez and his unmistakeable laugh.
I did my share of laughing too, tears streaming down my face, it was a blast.
At one point Ezra says 'Mom that sounds nothing like you!!!'
See me and Ezra spend A LOT of time together, he is the only one that is homeschooled, so he sees me in all different settings and observes and hears me a lot!
So he knows exactly what I sound like.
Guess where I'm going with this?! Here.....God knows exactly what you sound like in your everyday life, he knows you better than you know yourself. Yet for some reason when we approach him in prayer our voice changes, we can suddenly become somebody completely different because maybe sometimes we care more about how our prayers sound than the one we are praying to!!!
Guess what...God knows when you are ticked off and he can handle it, he knows when you are so full of joy that you are over the top giddy and he would love to experience that with you too.
What I'm getting to is this....be REAL, be YOURSELF, whatever emotion you may be experiencing, wherever you may be, just talk to him....don't change your voice or your stance to appear more 'holy' or feel you need to have your prayer sound a certain way....just be....
Friends he is so in love with you and he can handle every single emotion and feeling no matter how extreme it may be!
He knows you and wants relationship with you, the you that you are RIGHT NOW!
I pray you feel and know his love in a real tangible way TODAY!!
Love you friends!


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