Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Breath of Fresh Air.....

You know how it is when you feel like you've been going around the same problem in your head over and over again and somehow thinking that by going over it again and again that somehow it will be solved??

Then along comes someone and gives you a new perspective, a new take on it, a look from the outside and it feels like you have finally exhaled and taken in a long deep breath of fresh air.

I am the 'ask the questions and expect immediate answers' type person. I am so guilty of expecting God to show up and give me the answers when I think I need them instead of waiting for His timing and His presentation of the answer. Today that answer came in the form of a friend, someone that I am able to share my heart with completely without any judgement someone who inspires me to be a better person. What I got was not an 'Abra cadabra type make it all better type answer' but rather steps to walk out my questions. Taking actual steps forward so that direction can come with the overall outcome being real solid answers to questions that I have, after all you can't steer a car that is standing still.

This past couple of weeks has been tough searching for answers and each time feeling like I am coming up empty and today I feel like I have been a given a glimmer of light on my path and that I can take small steps everyday in becoming more of what God wants me to be.

Ask, Seek, Knock - Matt 7:7-11

7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; those who seek find; and to those who knock, the door will be opened.

Today I am thanking God for answers that come in His timing and His way!! and for friends who are willing to share their life without fear or intimidation with complete honesty and boldness!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Morning Laughs....

With the pouring rain outside I drove my kids to school this morning and as I am about to park and let them hop out I say to them ' You are going to have to run because...(here I break out into song and sing loudly) 'It's raining men, Hallelujah, it's raining men.'

Keziah my seven year old jumps out of the van
and says ' Have a good day with all the men raining down, hope you find one.'

I laugh and say 'I already have one, remember? He is sitting at home.'

She replies matter-of-factly with a chuckle ' Well get him to rain down from the sky so you can catch him again.' and off she runs a big smile on her face.

I giggled all the way home.
My kids so often make me smile and laugh out loud, I hope that I will be remembered as a mom who was full of laughter and fun and that they will always know how much joy they bring to my life.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Sweet Cuddles and an Abundance of Understanding

My brother and sis-in-law Candy bought a baby lamb, they have 40 acres of land and have the most beautiful place for this baby to eventually graze. It is the sweetest little thing named Andy. He loves to cuddle and sit among people and when there is no one around it has a little baa, very sweet.
My Ezra has fallen in love and spent many hours playing with Andy, running around and also cuddling. Andy spent time amusing all the kids as well as the adults, sat on my lap for a while and kept me warm.
I never knew that those animals were so sweet and loved being around us humans. Takes me to the parable in the bible (Matt 18:12-14)where the shepherd went back for the one lamb that was missing, a story to remind us all that no one is ever meant to be left behind and that God cares for each one of us as individuals. I can now see why they used that story to deliver that message to us. A sweet lamb with a precious little cry is enough to pull anybody's heart strings, how much more precious our cry out to God when we are lost and how much more His desire to meet us each where we are at.
A great reminder to me and a neat experience to hold this little lamb and know that we are both precious in the eyes of our creator.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

You are an amazing kid with a big heart and a smile that lights up my world
not to mention the steel blue eyes and dimples
that make my heart smile.
You are blessed.
You are loved.
You have a great future ahead.
God loves you SO much
and so do we!!
~Hugs and Love,
from Mom, Dad, Noah and Keziah

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Special Times....

Today I had the pleasure of taking Ezra my middle child out for a date. I do this every year on or around their birthdays, take them out of school and make them feel special.
Our date started out going shopping and picking out a few special birthday gifts, small ones this year because I am taking all three kids to the Jonas Brothers in July and that is their big birthday gift.
So as we are walking through the mall Ezra grabs my hand and says ' thanks mom, this is the awesomest day ever'. Then we headed out to lunch at a 'fancy adult restaurant' as he calls it, as we approached the restaurant I noticed we'd be the first people there and I said that to him, he replies 'well then we will have a real date with each other and spend some quiet time together'...too cute. We had a fabulous/quiet lunch and were able to discuss so many different topics without his brother and sister there to interrupt. We talked about how he felt about being the 'middle child' and about how he is being disciplined and a bunch of other was so special and it warmed my heart. He is such a special kid and I love going one on one with the kids and seeing a different side of them when they are alone.
He said so many special things one of them being ' no matter how much we argue mom I will always love you.'......sigh......Even though I fail too often it is amazing to see love and grace extended even from a child.

Happy Birthday Ezra, you are incredibly special and loved. You have an amazing future ahead of you!!
**top picture taken at the restaurant with my crackberry
***other pic taken mothers day

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mothers Day 09

What a wonderfully special day. Started out receiving a beautiful necklace, earrings and a card from my honey and the kids, the kids were so excited to give it to me they were huddled around me awaiting my response..too sweet. Then off to church and made to feel incredibly blessed and special, each mom received a bracelet and then charms could be purchased after church so my son Ezra bought me a charm for the bracelet.

After church it was off to brunch out at a local banquet center with my mom in law and father in law, I really appreciate them. They are incredible people and I am so thankful to have in laws that I love and get along with.

Then after a short nap it was off to supper at my mom and dad's place, that is always a place where we are guaranteed to have fun and a lot of laughs! I love the feeling of going home, grabbing a cup of fresh coffee and sitting with my mom and dad and my bros and their wives and chatting about our lives.

Life is good and my heart feels so full.

There are days when being a mother seems so overwhelming and filled with doubt but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I would never give up the opportunity to be the mom to my kids.

My heart goes out to all the women out there who are trying to conceive I am praying for you today and asking for God's hand upon you to heal, move and protect you today and grant you the desires of your heart!!

Monday, May 04, 2009


It truly amazes me how one can look at a little life so precious and not believe in God!
It also amazes me how a newborn knows how to turn to mom's breast for food and how they are unique with their own personality already. I am done the baby stage by almost 8 years and I am thankful I don't have to go back there but being around a newborn makes me realize how precious life truly is.
It is also a good reminder to me that each and everyday is a chance at a new beginning, even though I can't physically crawl back into the womb and be reborn I have each day to start anew, with new resolve. Each morning I have the opportunity to rise and spend time with the one who loves me the most and ask, where should I begin again? what should I leave behind? I have discovered a few answers to those questions and I am excited about some of the new beginnings in my life, one of them being leaving complete trust in God, knowing that He has my best interests at heart and even though things might not always work out the way I want them to I can trust that He knows what He is doing!!
I thought I'd share a new beginning with you, I had the honor of photographing my friend's newborn, his name is Cade....isn't he the sweetest ??

Have a blessed week , the start of a new beginning!!!