Tuesday, March 18, 2008
WHAT did you just say??
Ever have one of those moments when you are in your own little world when suddenly words being spoken around you 'wake' you up and you repeat the words in your head and then it dawns on you and you say' WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?' okay this can't be done when you are over hearing a conversation of complete strangers in public but this can be done when it is one of your kids.
This happened to me the other day as Keziah was getting ready to get into the hot tub and is wearing a bikini and I am sitting nearby reading a book and then I overhear her saying " I am fat, yup look at me I am fat" at this point my heads jerks up and I almost yell 'WHAT DID YOU SAY??' and she looks at me all guilty and then I proceed to give her the 'lecture'...that she is NOT fat and that is not nice to say and God made her beautiful and you are only SIX years old what are you talking about etc. etc. I think I scared that out of her ( for now).
Then comes the guilt I feel, how often has she maybe overheard me on a bad day standing in front of the mirror saying 'man am I ever fat, look at those ugly legs and tummy etc etc' I know I have come a long way since I used to put myself down ALL the time and now I am very careful about when I say stuff to make sure it isn't around the kids but I wonder how does God feel when He hears me say that. After all He is the one who created me and Loves me no matter what I may look like. The anger and frustration I felt when I heard my girlie say that ,hurt me and how much MORE does my Father in heaven care about me than I do for my own child. Words are so powerful spoken in anger, frustration, pain or even happiness they are just as powerful every time and remembered by little ears to be pulled out of the memory bank at anytime and then turned inward.
I also know that girls are feeling the pressure younger and younger to conform to a certain image of beauty and I have heard other girls her age make comments like that....SERIOUSLY what is happening to our little girls, can't we just let them be little girls? I guess we have to lead by example and if that is all they hear us obsess about then maybe they feel they have to do the same.......yikes!
Anyway..I will continually become more aware of the words coming out of my mouth because once they are out they are hard to get back!! What is that saying again "Speak out of anger and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret!" I guess that goes for frustration and disappointment too!